[Chorus]
Now, but I can't
And I don't know
How we're just two men as
God had made us,
Well, I can't...well, I can!
Too much, too late, or just not enough of this
Pain in my heart for your dying wish,
I'll kiss your lips again.

They all cheat at cards and the checkers are lost,
My cellmate's a killer, they made me do push-ups (in drag)
But nobody cares if you're losing yourself...am I losing myself?!
Well, I miss my mom, Will they give me the chair,
Or lethal injection, or swing from a rope if you dare;
Ah, nobody knows...all the trouble I've seen!

[Chorus]
To your room...
What they ask of you
Will make you want to say, "So long..."
Well, I don't remember, Why remember...YOU?!

Do you have the keys to the hotel?!
'Cause I'm gonna string this motherfucker on fire! (FIRE!!)

Life is but a dream for the dead,
And well I, I won't go down by myself,
But I'll go down with my friends.
Now now now now...now now now...now now now!!

Thursday, August 18, 2005

rainy day makes me lazy..

i didnt go 2 classes dis morning..

i woke up at 8 n stared at the window..

alamak... ujan lak plak.. camno nk gi ni?

terpaksa tido balik.. hahahha

i'm in computer lab for water management class..

terpakse dtg sbb nk upload assignment.. klu x.. sori la..

tido lg heaven!

and because i enjoy dis class..

ermm...

i still dun feel comfortable wif myself..

until when? i dunno..

mountain of assignments are waiting for me..

got to go..

Wassalam

[[get through this narrow, endless road alone]]*|11:44 AM|

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

emotion: mixed.. 1 thing for sure i'm not happy

erm.. i think i'm gonna be very busy dis week..

hurgh.. gimme some strength n energy...

since i dun have enough for now..

i need to go to klang today, thursday, friday, sat n sunday..

n need to do the same for another 4 weeks..

Ya Allah..

dah byk ari aku rase x sedap ati.. xselesa..

well i try to get over it with my study, make myself busy..

(bkn aku dah mmg bz ke?)

usually i dun give my 100% attention on my assignment

but i think i do really have to do it..

erm...

below is the lyric of Menanti Sebuah Jawaban

Ungu Violet OST by Padi..

i thought Ungu Violet and dis song were boring..

again.. i was wrong..

here... i paste dis lyric to dedicate it to someone..

someone who really plays big role in my life now..

i got nothing else to share..

btw i wish there will be some1 plays dis song wif piano..

just for me..

i do really want to hear it..

feel the touch of this song...

got to go

Wassalam..

Song: Menanti Sebuah Jawaban (Ungu Violet OST)

Artist: Padi

Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu

Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu

seiring jejak kakiku bergetar

Aku tak terpagut oleh cintamu

Namun kau masih terdiam membisu

Sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu

Mendekap penuh harapan tuk mencintaimu

Setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu

Menanti sebuah jawaban tuk memilikimu

Betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwaku

Semoga kau tau isi hatiku

Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku

p/s: i cried when i listened last nite to dis song.. i can get the feeling..

[[get through this narrow, endless road alone]]*|11:31 AM|

Thursday, August 11, 2005

i do really miss blogging...

dis is my 1st entry for august..

hurm.. i'm kinda bz dis morning...

dunno why..

*blur*

my mood was distracted by the failure of my presentatation..

warghh... i was so excited but we got technical prob..

now i'm in computer lab 4 my water mngmt class...

i really enjoy dis class coz it uses 90% e-learning method..

anta assignment pon online n on the spot..

so xyah la nak tangguh² keje

alahai... kantoi lak lectrer nampak..

hurm..

no idea to be shared..

got to go

Wassalam

[[get through this narrow, endless road alone]]*|12:34 PM|

Monday, July 25, 2005

Which Naruto Character Are You?
Test by naruto - kun.com

am i naruto in real life? hoho

i dun think so.. coz i am myself.. real human

who is burden wif loads of life conflict and probs..

sape yg xnak idup senang kan?

tipu aaa kalu ade org nk idup susah...

but it's just not everyone can live in fortune..

erm.. i experience another almost sleepless nite..

i knew i had to attend my class 2day..

so i took medicine to drive me sleep..

am i crazy? i just wanna have a normal sleep..

dat's all.. b4 i fell asleep, i made a resolution..

resolution which can change my personality..

my way of life..

here, i wanna make a statement

' for those who had been cursed or sworn by me, i beg for ur apology.. it doesnt mean i hate u, it doesnt mean i want to hurt u, i doesnt mean i want to humilate u, it doesnt mean i'm crazy, it doesnt mean i dun love u, it doesnt mean i am cold to u... it means dat i failed in controlling my emotion, my temper... just put urself in my shoes.. u'll know how does it fell to be Muhammad Hidayah.. think it over guys.. my sincerity to beg for apology is true.. i am ready to accept the way u guys going to treat me.. it's either forgive n guide me or leave and hate me..'

dis statement isnt for a person..

it's 4 every1 who i hurt lately or long time ago..

i'm a normal human.. never escape from commiting sins..

either between me n Him or other human..

well.. i just have a wish for now...

wish my life will lead to normal way..

hurgh..

owh btw below is the lyric of Mimpi Yg Sempurna by Peterpan

i played dis song for almost 30X last nite..

maybe deep inside me in wanna have

mimpi yg sempurna..

got to go

Wassalam

Song: Mimpi Yg Sempurna

Artist: Peterpan

Mungkinkah bila kubertanya

Pada bintang-bintang

Dan bila ku mulai merasa

Bahasa kesunyian..

Sadarkah aku yang berjalan

Dalam kehampaan

Terdiam, terpana, terbata

Semua dalam keraguan

Aku dan semua yang terluka

Karena kita...

Aku kan menghilang.. dalam gelap malam

Lepas ku melayang..

Biarlah kubertanya... pada bintang-bintang

Tentang arti kita.. dalam mimpi yang sempurna

Aku dan semua yang terluka

Karena kita...

Aku kan menghilang.. dalam gelap malam

Lepas ku melayang..

Biarlah kubertanya... pada bintang-bintang

Tentang arti kita.. dalam mimpi yang sempurna

[[get through this narrow, endless road alone]]*|10:22 AM|

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

condition: bad headache, flu and fever

emotion: blur+sad+missing

erm.. i'm very uncomfortable wif myself rite now..

many factors cause me to kinda messy day..

when i woke up dis morning.. i feel like empty..

i dunno whether i suppose to go for my class or not..

things keep bugging my head even tho i see clearly

how to get rid of them..

i want to have a good start 4 new semester..

unfortunately i cant... shit!!

some1 asks me to figure out what i've been trying to be lately..

not to be proud, i'm such a quick-think person..

i spent 1 whole nite to figure what's going on wif me..

and now i know what am i suppose to do...

and i know what drives me to dis...

a messege for some1:

u're making the gap bigger..

believe me.. it's not just me to think..

erm..

i miss these guys.. faizal, ayin, awie n jamal..

got to go..

Wassalam

[[get through this narrow, endless road alone]]*|11:17 AM|

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