Wednesday, June 29, 2005
dis image was taken on 31st Jan 2005
at Ipoh Bowl, Kinta City
erm.. i take a look on ayin's fotopages..
found dis pic.. wif caption
"lihatlah ketajaman rambut dayah"to ayin:
mcm laa rambut hang tuh xtajam..i'm bored... looking for someone to talk to...
dat's why i'm here.. in my favourite cc..
erm.. dun have anything to share..
i'm listening to an old song.. which i like b4 my puberty age..
hahaha..
erm..
i share the lyric here..
got to go
Wassalam
Song: Suratan atau Kebetulan
Artist: Kenny, Remy and Martin
Sesuatu yang tak disangka
Sering kali mendatangi kita
Itukah suratan dalam kehidupan
Atau sekadar satu kebetulan
Kita asyik membicarakan
Persoalan hidup dan pilihan
Serta kejujuran semakin berkurang
Masih tiada bertemu jawapan
Walau kita dihadapkan
Dengan berbagai pilihan
Mengapa sering terjadi
Pilihan tak menepati
Hingga amat menakutkan
Menghadapi masa depan
Seolah telah terhapus
Sebuah kehidupan yang kudus
Pertemuan sekali ini
Bagi diriku amat bererti
Tetapi ku bimbang untuk menyatakan
Bimbang kan berulang kesilapan
Walau kita dihadapkan
Dengan berbagai pilihan
Mengapa sering terjadi
Pilihan tak menepati
Hingga amat menakutkan
Menghadapi masa depan
Seolah telah terhapus
Sebuah kehidupan yang kudus
Sesuatu yang tak disangka
Sering kali mendatangi kita
Itukah suratan dalam kehidupan
Atau sekadar satu kebetulan
[[get through this narrow, endless road alone]]*|3:45 PM|
Monday, June 27, 2005
from left: me, awie, ayin and acinlocation: McDonald Kinta City, Ipoh
from left: faizal, ayin's hand and melocation: still in the same McD
activity: dig his nose.. yuck!
erm... nice but boring day for me today..
btw went to ipoh yesterday.. for a little gath..
i joined the gath as unofficial guest..
the gath was actually for KMPk students..
it was nice... men boling, tgk wayang..
suke btul aku menyakat budak² kt sane..
dah laa xknal.. xpasal² dpt pangkt
the most sengal person of the day..
haha.. i just tried to be a friendly person..
and at the same time to release my tensions..
erm.. i watched Batman Begins..
the 1st 30-40 minutes is boring..
i fell asleep coz it wasnt damn interesting...
what else huh?
btw have a msg for a fren
'i'm not mad to u!!'
got to go
Wassalam
[[get through this narrow, endless road alone]]*|10:02 PM|
Friday, June 24, 2005
emotion: frustrated and sad
i felt so weak when i woke up dis morning..
erm.. slept at 6.30 in the morning..
my brain cant stop thinking n drove me to stay up..
even now.. my brain doesnt stop..
somehow.. i feel i should disappear from certain people's life..
maybe dat can make them feel happy..
without me who always bugging their life..
i dunno what's wrong wif them or even myself..
but being disappear is not a good solution..
i have a quote like dis
"rasa ini takkan terubati, tetapi mati takkan mengubati"
dis quote helps me not to think in a conventional way..
i cant deny maybe one day i'll need them or either..
the bottomline is FORGIVE ME GUYS!
ALL OF U CAN HATE ME BUT I WONT HATE U!
at this time i wish i could cry..
cry to get rid all these pains and sickness..
cry to get rid all my problems..
cry to be a better person..
but i cant! i dunno why...
i went to my beloved old school dis evening..
i played basketball and rugby wif my bestfriends..
jamal, faizal, awie, and long time no see a-ash
and kamirun.. my ex-classmate..
i played wif full of my heart to put my problems aside..
it worked but only for a while..
tapi ape² pon puas gile aa main td..
sampai terkoyak tracksuit.. celah kangkang lak tu..
dan yg paling penting.. xpakai ape² kt dalam.. hahaha..
terpakse kontrol ble budak pompuan f6 lalu..
btw, SMKE VII will hold their sports day tomorrow..
as usual as school tradition, the event will starts at 2pm
but in my prediction, it will not be as glamourous and fun event
as what i had experienced before..
i say dis base on the preparation..
cam xde pape je..
biaq pi laaa..
erm.. until here..
got to go
Wassalam
[[get through this narrow, endless road alone]]*|9:51 PM|
Thursday, June 23, 2005
finally i return to my hometown..
what a tiring day i've experienced...
noting much to share..
i wonder why kl was so bz dis afternoon?
jammed bagai nak gile.. naik letih kaki pijak clutch..
dah laa kete ade prob sket ari ni.. nyaris accident lak tu..
erm.. actually i was piss off wif 2 persons today n yesterday..
they did something which hurt me..
but i think they didnt mean or realize dat..
i admit i can easily mad lately...
even though for a very small reason..
but i cant do nothing bout dat..
i just cant be patient for now .. ONLY FOR NOW!
btw to those persons.. i beg for ur apology..
owh.. btw to Mastura n Nadhila.. good luck for ur xm..
got to go..
Wassalam
[[get through this narrow, endless road alone]]*|9:53 PM|
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
warggh!!!.. my day in kl..
noting to share here..
*hungry*
i'm in tmn setiawangsa now..
use my cousin's pc..
i'm totally bored n emotionless...
lucky in my hotel room got HBO channel..
at least i can watch some movies... Ahamdulillah..
suddenly my mood turn upside down..
erm..
it's getting worse now..
got to go
Wassalam
[[get through this narrow, endless road alone]]*|10:42 PM|
Monday, June 20, 2005
everyone pisses off wif me..
i dun blame anyone who has the right..
erm.. i have a matter dat bugging my life for now..
i try to act cool n pretend dat everything's ok..
i think i'm quite success for dat..
but there are 2 persons know bout what's going on wif me..
and only one dat i think really stands by me..
he's Faizal.. my the very BEST fren..
erm.... thx dude even though u've made a wrong assumption at 1st
btw thx to Anuar coz did help me to register my subject...
to Faidz.. i understand u're trying to drive me to a good path..
but i'm sorry coz i've slipped and it takes time for me to recover..
erm...the bottom line is..
i'm trying to live in a new way.. the way i never expect it b4..
this way is rough.. i need lots of favour from other people..
got to go..
Wassalam
[[get through this narrow, endless road alone]]*|10:06 PM|
Sunday, June 19, 2005
erm.. i felt uneasy today..
and what i'm afraid of happened today..
hurgh.. what a disaster..
i dun want to mention it here..
its a very critical family problem..
erm...... btw thx to faizal n his parents!
they invited me to have my breakfast at their home..
makan pulut durian... sedap aaa..
aku nih gile sket makan durian.. typical melayu laa katekan..
btw.. i've changed my mind not to take genetics subject..
those subjects are imcompatible wif other subjects..
so i've made up my mind to make biochemical as my major..
erm.. actually i dunno what i'm thinking now..
my head is empty
hurghh..
got some stuff to do tomorrow..
dat's all for now..
got to go..
Wassalam
[[get through this narrow, endless road alone]]*|9:03 PM|
Thursday, June 16, 2005
our faces look so 'cool'.. dont u think so? top: najib (blue t-shirt) and ainol (black)
center: jamal (white t-shirt), awie (dlm gelas)
faizal's mum, faizal (still standing look),
elisha cuthbert (latest fcuk design t-shirt),
and yazed (evil-look)
bottom: ayin (bleeding nose) and me (new look)
emotionless.. dat's what i'm facing now..
warrrghh... dunno what to do..
*blank*
i got a picture which i think crazy but creative..
this pic is edited by my best buddy - faizal..
nampak sgt hang tu xde keje..
i just cant wait to start a new semester..
try to grow up a new determination..
just want to prove to someone..
i'm better than YOU dude..
u've challenged me in indirect way..
below is Killers' Mr. Brightside lyric..
well.. at 1st i thought the intro of dis song is kinda annoying
but after almost thousand times listen to it,
it's pretty nice to hear..
well.. i always misjudge songs.. but in the end i'll love them..
got to go
Wassalam
Song: Mr. Brightside
Artist: The Killers
I'm coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go
I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside
I’m coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go
I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibi
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside
I never... I never... I never...
[[get through this narrow, endless road alone]]*|1:32 PM|
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
condition: got fever
hey.. dis my 3rd day in kl..
and i'm now in MMU Cyberjaya.. waiting 4 Shad..
i just stay in the car.. sweating like hell..
lucky MMU has a wide wireless network coverage..
so i can update dis blog..
dunno what to say.. coz dun have any idea..
i'm going back to taiping dis afternoon..
erm.. i went to see all my siblings in 3 different places..
my bro in kelana jaya, my 1st sis in shah alam and 2nd sis in putrajaya
i didn't see them 4 quite a time
i feel very sick rite now.. i'm ill
waaa... plz some1 help me..
i need a doctor..
btw i have a message for two person
to 1st person : u have changed.. hope i can see the old u..
to 2nd person : u have underestimated me.. thx 4 dat..
these 2 persons make me sad.. totally..
and i dun expect anything from them now..
and these 2 are my bestfriends.. thx dudes!!!
thx for making me lose my faith in u..
got to go..
Wassalam
[[get through this narrow, endless road alone]]*|10:21 AM|
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
emotion: sick, frustrated, and down
woke up @ 6.. subuh.. sent my mum..
went to ipoh wif shad.. only to buy her new cloth..
xpe laa.. org support sume.. drive je..
returned to taiping at 3pm..
slept for 15minutes b4 faidz called me
he gave me an "amazing" news..
which makes me piss off, frustrated, down etc.
dun want to mention what it's all about..
then continue my nap 4 10minutes b4 my mum called me..
arghhhh... i cant sleep after dat n i feel more and more sick..
i fetched my mum @ 5pm n asked her to drop me @ lake garden..
i walked around the lake garden.. try to chill out my mind..
still i cant.. hurghh... DAMN!
hurm.. 4get bout it laa...
i want to share a lyric from a unique band
I'm Not OK (I Promise) by My Chemical Romance
dun get confused this band wif another stupid artist,
Chemical Brothers.. hate dis group so much!!!
i watched dis song's vclip last 3 months
but i just attracted week.. dunno why..
this sing is ok just like their Helena..
enjoy it guys..
got to go..
Wassalam
Song: I'm Not OK (I Promise)
Artist: My Chemical Romance
Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go,
it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks,
the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again you sing the words
but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time
take a good hard look!
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book,
but the pages are all torn and frayed
I'm okay
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-f**king-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)
[[get through this narrow, endless road alone]]*|10:23 PM|
Sunday, June 05, 2005
piss off.. piss off.. piss off
dat's what i always feel for now..
i can get piss off easily even 4 a very small thing
dunno what happen to me..
i've become extraordinary sensitive..
i feel weird with myself..
inner conflicts drive me to act rude.. i think laaa
I BEG FOR PEOPLE'S APOLOGY!!
i had lash out to some people
deep inside me i feel so guilty..
forgive me...
dat's all for now..
got to go
Wassalam
[[get through this narrow, endless road alone]]*|5:56 PM|
Saturday, June 04, 2005
magnificent view from penang bridge
from left: ayin, me, faizal, awie and najib
location: gurney drive, penang
picture's theme: mind ur own business
location: nostalgic penang ferry
for a week i havent update my blog..
above are pictures taken from my trip to penang
i drove Shad's car with Shad, Syahda and Kamarul in it
and Ayin drove his car with Awie, Faizal n Najib..
departed on 12 noon n returned on 11pm..
our 1st destinantion was USM.. Awie's campus..
he had some matter there..
after we had our lunch, we headed to Gurney Plaza..
dat was 1st time to be in USM n Gurney Plaza
spent couple of hours there, watched Madagascar..
series klaka giler..
i love David Schwimmer's voice for dat giraffe..
it really sounds dumb and stupid..
the background musics are the main factor for dis movie..
ok stop bout the madagascar..
we had our dinner at Gurney Drive..
took pictures near the shore.. and return to taiping..
it was a tiring journey but fun..
i love u guys.. thx 4 the trip..
it was nice to be with all of u all day long..
btw it's the only happy day for me along dis week
i'm totally bored coz i have noting to do..
i still have a month to stay at home n do noting..
warghh.. what a disaster.. i want to return to campus..
hurm... life is boring rite?
especially when u have no money and no job..
dat's all
got to go..
Wassalam
[[get through this narrow, endless road alone]]*|9:58 PM|
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