emotion: frustrated and sad
i felt so weak when i woke up dis morning..
erm.. slept at 6.30 in the morning..
my brain cant stop thinking n drove me to stay up..
even now.. my brain doesnt stop..
somehow.. i feel i should disappear from certain people's life..
maybe dat can make them feel happy..
without me who always bugging their life..
i dunno what's wrong wif them or even myself..
but being disappear is not a good solution..
i have a quote like dis
"rasa ini takkan terubati, tetapi mati takkan mengubati"
dis quote helps me not to think in a conventional way..
i cant deny maybe one day i'll need them or either..
the bottomline is FORGIVE ME GUYS!
ALL OF U CAN HATE ME BUT I WONT HATE U!
at this time i wish i could cry..
cry to get rid all these pains and sickness..
cry to get rid all my problems..
cry to be a better person..
but i cant! i dunno why...
i went to my beloved old school dis evening..
i played basketball and rugby wif my bestfriends..
jamal, faizal, awie, and long time no see a-ash
and kamirun.. my ex-classmate..
i played wif full of my heart to put my problems aside..
it worked but only for a while..
tapi ape² pon puas gile aa main td..
sampai terkoyak tracksuit.. celah kangkang lak tu..
dan yg paling penting.. xpakai ape² kt dalam.. hahaha..
terpakse kontrol ble budak pompuan f6 lalu..
btw, SMKE VII will hold their sports day tomorrow..
as usual as school tradition, the event will starts at 2pm
but in my prediction, it will not be as glamourous and fun event
as what i had experienced before..
i say dis base on the preparation..
cam xde pape je..
biaq pi laaa..
erm.. until here..
got to go
Wassalam