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Tuesday, April 19, 2005

i haven't wrote for a week..
i miss to write but unfortunately i dun have any time or strength to write..
i had been in so-so mood for last week..
good things and bads are equal..
when i feel so good, there will be a thing to make me down..
i dunno why..
but last week gave me a lot of lessons...
and i see them from every corner of my life
and i think bout them before i sleep..
look deep inside of me..
i can see dat i have lots of bad quality..
and these lessons make me feel i'm not a good son, good friend, good bf and good person generally..
thanks to those people who gave me the lessons..
even though i dun even know you all..
but here i just wanna say how i regret to be a bad son to my parents
to Ayah: saya dah betray ayah byk kali.. saya dah gagalkan cita2 ayah utk saya jd doktor..
saya xpernah cuba utk hargai kesusahan ayah utk sara saya dan kakak2 saya..
w/pon saya benci dgn sikap ayah yg pemarah tp saya tetap sayangkan ayah..saya mintak maaf dari sebesar2 dosa hingga yg paling kecik...
to Mama: saya mmg anak yg xbaik utk mama.. saya slalu tentang ape saje yg mama ckp..
bukan maksud saya nk menderhaka tp kadang2 mama yg memaksa buat camtu..
tp belum masuk liang lahad saya dah dpt rasa seksa apabila seorg anak melawan ibu bapa
saya rasa hidup saya xberkat.. so saya mintak maaf dari saat saya lahir sbb mama
dah byk susah masa nak lahirkan saya sampai sekarang..
i'm asking for ur forgiveness my parents.. it's hard for me to say but i really regret for what i've done.. i love u my FATHER, CHE HASHIM B. ABD RAHMAN and my MOTHER, SITI ISAH BT. AJOT...
dat's all for now..
wassalam

HiDd@Hidayah@Dayah

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